10:42 pm Thursday, 18 September 2008
I seriously hate myself. Firstly,i shouldn't played during semester 1, and now?Retribution has come.Thanks God!.Now i don't know whether i have to stay in SP (shitty poly/sucky poly/stupid poly) for 3.5 years.
Secondally,i felt i'm so weak.In sec sch days,i used to be forever optimistic.Whenever i fail anything,the next day i will be energtic.But what has happened to me?I had tried to stand up again but i can't.In the end,have to approach yw n pour everything to her(sorry if i irriate you that time).Maybe i have to learn how to keep things to myself,and don't cause a nusiance to others.
Thridly,i'm feeling that i'm so useless.I can't help my frens when they are in trouble now.You all can say that i'm trying to act hero here.But...haiz.don't know how to say liao.
going private?considering.but who cares?I'm just someone who is an irriatant in other people's eyes,just like getting a 100% pure chemical.I'm those who are there and make it contanminated.