9:58 pm Tuesday, 20 May 2008
haiz. datasheets,reports,lectures,tutourials. are these the components of tertiary education?
isit juz bcos we are more matured,so they assumed tt we r able to take the stress?i seriously doubt so.the assignments are piling up.sometimes 24hrs a dae is nt enuff for us.sec sch is way too much of a difference to poly life.haiz. yes, others may sae it takes time,bt seriously how long?2months? i dun tink any1 hav the time to spare.even we set our mindset to work vv hard,but wats the use?get a gd grade wif scarificing all our brain cells,our slp and our lives? yes,there's muz b a sacrifice,bt i seriously feels tt tiz sacrifice is way too much alrdy.
on cca wise,it's the same too.i seriously sort or regretted joinin the symphonic band.the standard there is way too high for me, a lousy flute player who dun even noe how to do vibrato.others may sae tt it will take time,bt the same qns comes again: do we hav all the time??now, i feelin as though im a small ant,while all my section members, includin the yr1s are all humans.im living in a dimension whr i can b crushed to death unexpectally.in the band, there's nt even 1 person i know well, except my klassmate.most of my sec sch buddies all go to rp,and i feel so lonely in sp.i may seem tt im enjoyin,bt never judge a bk by its cover.yes, we will make new frens,bt seriously, i feel tt i cant do it.im nt as strong as i used to b in sec sch daes. seeing all my other frens happily wif their new found frens, im so envy for them.im still as childish and immature as last time.
i sort of regretted goin to sp.seriously.its lyk a new place for me,althoug 5 wks has passed.seeing all my frens are so happi,im felt happi for them oso.some even found their soulmates.it seems tt the onli person i can share my sorrows wif is tiz blog,whr i can let everitink out.last time, pple will come to me and im more than happi to listen.now i finally noe how they feel at tt time alrdy.
gd nite my frens.